Terrific Tuesday

I am not letting satan tell me today is going to be a not so good day.  It will be a great one. The nurse calle d in with a sick baby so ....it's me and Josh again.  He woke up with a smile as usual, making me think,  time for me to be happy too.  I have so much I can do here at the house, just trying to keep busy today and make the day go fast.  Hmmm...trying to figure out how to get excited about cleaning base boards.  Well thanking God that I can clean baseboards, no really, I am serious.  Have you ever wanted to do something really bad and couldn't because of a physical condition. I know someday I might not be able to bend down and scrub, scrub, scrub.  So today with every movement of these wings on my arms, I will be thinking ....ewwwww...I see them shrinking....ewww...I love doing this.  I might have to print that phrase out  and tape it in front of my face all day.  I do have to look forward to the fact that Judy is coming over to help me rearrange some things in the house.  Hopefully it will give me a whole new lease on how the house can be decorated.  Well time for Josh's bath and to get him up in the chair, can't believe I am already done with his meds....whooo hooooo... might be back on here later.

This is my very first blog ever.  So how do you know what to write.  I suppose I will just start typing my thoughts.  My day has been mixed with alot of different emotions today.  But, with me , isn't every day filled with emotions.  This morning I awoke not really wanting this day to start.  I knew Mike was leaving today to take his mom and dad to Jacksonville and would be gone all week. Do I really have to start this day at all? I could sense the depression coming on so I  had to get rid of the feeling as quick as possible.  My first thought was that  I had to be around my Sunday School friends!! What better way to fight being down.  I did just that.  I can't tell you one thing that Alouida said this morning.  My mind was going in a thousand different directions.  Not afraid of being alone, not afraid of taking care of Josh, not afraid of the storms...wait I am just a little.  It's just the fact that I rely so much on Mike to do things that I might just not feel like doing at the moment. I know that sounds like I might just be a little selfish or maybe you might call that downright spoiled or just loving someone with everything you have.  I rely on him just as he does me.  I miss him already.  But wait, I know I am not alone..Josh is here...and my Father..always here never ever to leave me.  Enough said,  Josh is at peace at this moment , sitting in his chair in front of the TV with no worries at all. Oh to be like him, never sad, always happy , no matter what he may have to endure on any given day.  Gonna be like Josh the rest of the day!!